Am I Ready for This?
i wrote this blog 4 years ago. and lately im feeling the same thing again as my friends keep asking me to be their bridesmaid.... [which will be in my next blog]
i was eating lunch today with my friend carlough when i saw one of my bactchmate in highschool. then he suddenly blurrted "oi sa december ha? i agi ku nala an invitation," i didnt ask what he meant by the 'invite' i know another wedding will happen again.
my friend roland was right when he said last night 'grabe! at 25 kadamu sa nag-asawa sa at.' that is why during kennesa's birthday (last sunday -- october 21) he sent her a message telling her to be careful coz she's 25 and she might get married (SOON) just like our other classmates who turned 25. he was even scaring me out that i might be the next since ill be turning 25 next year. i told him that i would skip 25 and turn 26 next year. hehehehe
kidding aside, as i watched my batchmate talked about their wedding coordinator, it slowly sink in me that our next step in life is getting married or looking for a lifelong partner. we've gone through alot in our lives. and this is a point where we have to start to settle down or at least be serious with what life is. we are not getting any younger and we should know what we want in our life. but why can't i feel the excitement of getting married or the excitement of looking for someone whom i could spend the rest of my life with. am i aware of this thing? or i just dont want to accept the fact that we are on this stage.
wedding.. marriage.. living with the person for the rest of my life. havent thought about it! but this is starting to sink in me as my friends starts to get engaged, going to the get-to-know-the-family stage in a relationship and getting married.
this time i was able to ask myself "am i ready for this stage in our life?" i could not find any answers coz i know deep in my heart i still long to be with 'that someone' i had dreamed of, that i could not have anymore. i couldn't imagine myself without being with 'that' person. but i know longing for 'him' is like waiting for a death to come.
everyone is talking about marriage. their motif's, where to get married, who will be in the entourage. everything single detail about a wedding is the only thing i've heard from my friends lately. i may not see myself walking down the aisle for the next 5 years of my life now, but im still looking forward of being wed to someone i would love, care and understand for the rest of my life.
who doesnt want to be married? its everybody's dream! walking down the aisle wearing a white (or any color) dress as you slowly approach the altar where your choosen partner is waiting for you. exchanging vows infront of your family and friends, exchanging promises and love. that's one of the most awaited event of a girls life.
the day i dream to come to my life (SOON) =)
i was eating lunch today with my friend carlough when i saw one of my bactchmate in highschool. then he suddenly blurrted "oi sa december ha? i agi ku nala an invitation," i didnt ask what he meant by the 'invite' i know another wedding will happen again.
my friend roland was right when he said last night 'grabe! at 25 kadamu sa nag-asawa sa at.' that is why during kennesa's birthday (last sunday -- october 21) he sent her a message telling her to be careful coz she's 25 and she might get married (SOON) just like our other classmates who turned 25. he was even scaring me out that i might be the next since ill be turning 25 next year. i told him that i would skip 25 and turn 26 next year. hehehehe
kidding aside, as i watched my batchmate talked about their wedding coordinator, it slowly sink in me that our next step in life is getting married or looking for a lifelong partner. we've gone through alot in our lives. and this is a point where we have to start to settle down or at least be serious with what life is. we are not getting any younger and we should know what we want in our life. but why can't i feel the excitement of getting married or the excitement of looking for someone whom i could spend the rest of my life with. am i aware of this thing? or i just dont want to accept the fact that we are on this stage.
wedding.. marriage.. living with the person for the rest of my life. havent thought about it! but this is starting to sink in me as my friends starts to get engaged, going to the get-to-know-the-family stage in a relationship and getting married.
this time i was able to ask myself "am i ready for this stage in our life?" i could not find any answers coz i know deep in my heart i still long to be with 'that someone' i had dreamed of, that i could not have anymore. i couldn't imagine myself without being with 'that' person. but i know longing for 'him' is like waiting for a death to come.
everyone is talking about marriage. their motif's, where to get married, who will be in the entourage. everything single detail about a wedding is the only thing i've heard from my friends lately. i may not see myself walking down the aisle for the next 5 years of my life now, but im still looking forward of being wed to someone i would love, care and understand for the rest of my life.
who doesnt want to be married? its everybody's dream! walking down the aisle wearing a white (or any color) dress as you slowly approach the altar where your choosen partner is waiting for you. exchanging vows infront of your family and friends, exchanging promises and love. that's one of the most awaited event of a girls life.
the day i dream to come to my life (SOON) =)
let me know when your:) and I'll start looking for my dress:) crossing my fingers!
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