I Have A Crush On You *winky*

It was nice to write a blog when you are down and feeling lonely. Or being excited and had full of fun on everyday experience.

It had been a weird thing for me, since i don't know how to react about this. I guess it was weird because i haven’t been feeling this way in a long time, since work is eating and killing all my time, i don’t get to meet alot of people.

It was just lately when this thing hit me and i hope it was not by mistake because i was so into him,  like everybody would say -- it never choose a place nor time nor people... you know it’s there when you are hit by “it.”

Okay, I need to spit it out as i don’t want everybody to be thinking what i was talking about or who i am talking about.

After 5 years, i have this crush!! I mean FOR REAL!!! Ahahaha! This sound very highschoolish [a word from ate julliene thesa y. Baldo..] but it’s really a good feeling to consider at this point in my life – where i’m single at the age of 28. This was kinda funny at first when i realized that i am into him because we are really good friends. We’ve known each other for few months now, but i know he is one of those exceptional men i knew.

He is sweet, caring, super kind [i hope it continues that way . . . ], thoughtful [sometimes!], and i couldn’t stand his sense of humor!! He could continuously make me laugh – and can even make me laugh the whole day, of course he is cute [not like a dog, okay?] but cute because he has this cute smile J,  and most of all he is a good friend not just to me but to everyone [this makes my heart beats fast!!], and the fact that we are like cat and dog when we are together.

Unconsciously, I like him. But I tried to get the thought out of mind that it’s just a simple admiration to someone in the opposite sex. But the admiration that i was talking about became a strong feeling the next time we get to hang-out again, and made me realized that i do like him alot and i could not wish for a boyfriend, except --- HIM! [but too bad we can’t be . . . ]

It was a long and winding journey `til we get to hangout again. As everyone was busy with their work. . . 

The next thing i know were on the same place again laughing, teasing with other friends and just plainly hanging out and trying to put all the paper works and office works behind us.

This was the time i realized that i need to stop nourshing the feelings that i have for him. Or else i would be sour graping again and will have a hard time getting out from the deep shallow feelings. I need to use my brain this time around [again!] rather than my heart. I have to make a decision that no one will be affected except me.

So to you Mister . . . continue to be nice. . and i’ll forever cherish that i met a person like you in my journey of life ;-)